Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Thank you, and I think I'm in LOVE!

First off Thank you all So So much for your sweet comments the other day. I think I might print them all off and next time I have a rough day like that I'll read through them. It was so comforting to read that a lot of you have been through similar experiences, and most importantly you (and your kids) survived. Motherhood is definitely hard work, but definitely worth it.

Well, I actually finished a project. I bought the pattern for this hat off of etsy and I think I'm in love. It actually wasn't too hard to figure out and believe me I'm not the greatest crocheter. I don't even think I hold the hook right. The only hard part was I either crochet really tight or my baby has quite a large head, or maybe the pattern was a little off because my 3 1/2 month old is wearing a hat that according to the pattern is for a 12-24 month old.

The nice thing about crocheting is you can do it anywhere. Unlike sewing where I have to haul out the sewing machine and scissors and olfa board and cutter and fabric and thread, you get the picture. Someday I really need to invest in a sewing table, I'd probably get lots more done.

I'm gonna get if big trouble for this picture, but wouldn't the hat be cute for a little girl. Well, if your interested I'm going to be putting some hats on my etsy site (as soon as I find the time). You can request colors too if you'd like.

Have a great day, and thanks again for your sweet comments!

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Motherhood - It's dang hard!!!

So yesterday I was at my favorite little craft store by my house. I had my baby in his car seat hooked onto the part of the cart that is for kids to sit in. My 2 (almost 3) year old insisted on sitting in the back of the cart. I gave in and let him. There I am getting my fabric cut when my two year old grabs the cutting table and tries to pull the cart over to it. I think you all know where I'm going with this. Yes the cart tipped. I managed to pull the cart up while holding the car seat to save the baby, but my two year old came toppling out.

I felt awful. I didn't know weither to get mad at my two year old or soothe him because he was so shaken up. (Not shaken up enough I guess, because he kept trying to climb back in the cart). I felt like every eye on the store was on me and that moment, judging me as a mother. Looking back I still don't know what the right answer was, should I not have put the baby there? Maybe I shouldn't have let my toddler sit in the back. Maybe I should have soothed him before I got mad at him. I just know that when I left the store I was so upset I was shaking.

I feel like I internalize everything...........................is this normal? Do all mom's do this?

When we took my two year old in for stitches not knowing how he even cut his forehead .............I felt like a bad mom.
When I looked through my 8 year olds backpack this morning and realized she had a ton of unfinshed work..................I felt like a bad mom.
When were late to church.......................I feel like a bad mom.
When my 5 year old had 2 cavities ............................I felt like a bad mom.
When I realize I haven't changed my kids bed sheets for over a month........................I feel like a bad mom.
When I realize my kids have been playing the wii for way too long.............................I feel like a bad mom.
When I loose it and say things I shouldn't..........................I feel like a bad mom.
When the neighbor brings my 2 year old to the door because he somehow snuck out........................I feel like a bad mom.
When my baby is crying bloody murder while I'm trying to make dinner.....................I feel like a bad mom.

You get the picture! Everything and I mean everything makes me feel like a bad mom. I feel so blessed to have 4 wonderful, beautiful, healthy children. I really honestly do LOVE being a mom, but wow, I had no idea it would be this hard. It seems like the bad moments (listed above) way out number the times when you think, "Hey, I think I might be doing ok at this whole mom thing."

Well, thanks for letting me vent, I better get busy..............................I'm feeling like a bad mom for being on the computer.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

My baby's big day and some projects in the works!

So my baby's big day was actually 2 weeks ago, but it takes me a while to get to things lately. Anyways 2 weeks ago we blessed my sweet baby boy. Usually I'm much more prepared and buy their blessings outfits way in advance, but this guys outfit was bought the day before. I'm not into the tuxedo's or satin outfits, this is just a simple knit outfit that was very sweet. My husband gave him a beautiful blessing and we enjoyed having our family over for lunch afterward.

Here is my dad, we also call him the baby whisperer.

This is my little sister and her sweet daughter. Don't you just love her little dress. It's actually a hand me down from my daughter that my sister n' law made. It was one of my favorites.

Ok, not loving this photo, but it's the best one of all 6 of us. Wow, 6, I can't believe my little family is getting to be not so little. So anyways, remind me never to wear my hair back in a curly ponytail for pictures, not so cute!

While the adults were chatting the kiddos were playing and being crazy like kids do!

I'll tell ya, no one can pull an innocent, who me? face like this one can.

Family. My husband actually has 8 siblings, but only one was able to make it. They were all leaving on a trip to Israel the next week and as you can imagine were a little busy preparing. We were invited but I didn't feel like leaving our 3 month old for 10 days, seeing that I am his food source and all.

The sewing bug has definitely bit me. Now I just need to find the time to do it. My friend asked me to make a scripture bag for her daughter so that is what this fabric is for.

Ya know the quilt I made for my sister n' law in my previous post? Well I loved making it so much that I decided to make me a valentines table topper using this fabric and the same pattern. I love it when the people who cut the fabric are extra generous when the cut it. This fabric is called Astor Manor by 3 sisters. I love it.

With valentines coming I've also been busying thinking up a tutorial for a valentines shirt for my daughter. I think I've come up with one, I'm excited to give it a try!

Friday, January 1, 2010

2009 - You were good to us!!!

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